It’s happens to the best of us. That moment when you are feeling fabulous because you’ve successfully rocked your baby to sleep and it’s not even 7:15pm yet……….and then you look down and realize, not only did you not put her into pajamas, but you forgot to change her diaper……….a diaper that is wet and surely won’t last until morning.
Well, maybe fabulous is a bit exaggerated…. more like relieved because you are getting an early start on cleaning the kitchen, folding the laundry, etc. etc. Let’s face it, after a long day, it’s hard to get excited about those tasks. Regardless, that great feeling is dashed when you realize you’re going to have to wake that baby and your day just got longer.
Yes, this is the scene that played out in my house tonight and after much debate, I decided I was just going to have to change her diaper and put her in pajamas (her outfit would not be warm enough with the air conditioner on). Of course, that process woke her up and I spent the next 45 minutes trying to put her back to sleep, when the initial rock time had been about 10 minutes.
Now it’s past 8pm and I’m feeling the tiredness of the day, coupled with being 17 weeks pregnant, settling in. I don’t have the energy to stand in the kitchen for 30 minutes or fold and put away the laundry. Heck, I nearly rocked myself to sleep during that hour I spent in that chair.
I’m kicking myself for forgetting such a crucial bedtime step. How does one forget to put on pajamas?! Sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy, and I know it’s not just me. As mothers, we have SO much on our minds and we feel pulled in so many directions. I’m constantly trying to figure out how I should split up my time — which needs are most pressing. It might be 7pm but I’m busy planning out what will be happening during the 8pm hour well into the following day. There is always, ALWAYS something that needs done. It’s hard sometimes to not feel like a failure when the to-do list never seems to get any shorter, and sometimes gets longer.
It’s even harder sometimes to sit back and say, I’m taking some time for myself. I’m reading this book, I’m watching this show, I’m taking this bath, and I’m going to allow myself the luxury of not feeling guilty because I should be doing something more “productive.”
I decided to take the time to write this post tonight because I think:
- As moms, it’s important to realize that we all struggle to get it “all” done, and that we need to be pleased with ourselves for doing the best we can. We also need to realize we all struggle with feelings of not being adequate enough. I’ve talked to a lot of moms – it comes with the territory.
- We, YOU deserve a break! Don’t talk yourself out of taking some time for you because you have dishes to wash or a floor to mop. It will be there in the morning. You would never neglect your family and it’s important to remember not to neglect yourself.
Tonight, I’m taking my own advice and maybe you need to do the same.
I’m putting my feet up and enjoying a yummy snack before I go soak in a nice warm bath. Then I’ll relax in bed and watch a great show on Netflix before going to bed early. Forget the laundry, forget the dishes in the sink, forget the floor that needs to be swept — they will all still be there in the morning and tomorrow is a new day. And while the mess in my house might appear to show that motherhood has, yet again, kicked my butt and won the battle, this time I know it’s really me winning the war.