Today we gave Gideon his first haircut. And gosh, it seems like just yesterday he was born. I knew it was time. His hair was getting to the point where it was tickling his eyes and he would get it so dirty at every meal. He looks absolutely adorable with his new haircut, but it was definitely bittersweet.
While scrolling through Facebook a little while later I came across this music video that a friend had shared (Note – there’s a good chance you may cry, don’t say I didn’t warn you.):
When I started watching this my children were in the room. I knew almost immediately that I needed to turn it off until I was alone. Tonight while I rocked Gideon to sleep I watched it. And I cried. I ugly cried. Big time. The words to this song could not be more true to how I feel in this stage of motherhood.
While my oldest is almost 7, my youngest is 13 month old. I know now how quickly he is going to grow. I know how soon he will be 7 and I know how soon she will be 14. Everyone told me that the years would go by so fast, but I dismissed them early on. When Maggie was born I thought I had so much time before she started school and yet, she’s already in 1st grade! I thought I’d always remember everything and yet, I find myself forgetting things. Now I find myself frantic to somehow, some way, slow things down.
Don’t get me wrong, there are some things I’m loving about my children getting older. For instance, a few nights ago I went to Walmart with just Maggie. WHAT A DIFFERENCE! She is able to buckle/unbuckle her car seat. For once I wasn’t having to climb into the back of the van to release 3 little ones, put on 3 coats, lift 2 kids into the shopping cart, etc.. What a difference it was to have just Maggie walk beside me up and down the aisles. I had forgotten how much easier grocery shopping once was.
I left Walmart that night thinking about how easy our life will be when all of our children are over the age of 5. I do welcome the ease of travel. I welcome the easy grocery shopping trip, children who can feed themselves, and clean up after themselves too. And certainly, I look forward to the nights when I can sleep through the entire night without someone waking me up. I couldn’t tell you the last time I had a solid 8 hours of sleep. But, as rough as life can be some days, goodness I would not change it for the WORLD. And, as much as I will enjoy the ease of having older children, without a doubt I know I will miss having younger children in our lives.
If you aren’t a mom yet or you’re in the early stages, can I just encourage you today to slow down. Slow down with life. Most likely someone has already told you this, but trust us. Your baby will grow so fast. They will grow, they will change, they will mature faster than you’d ever imagine.
It’s okay if the dishes wait until morning so you have time to snuggle with your little one before bed.
It’s okay if you don’t get to put on makeup today or even take a shower.
It’s okay to not “keep up with the Jones” in exchange for more time with your family.
It’s okay if you rock your baby a little longer tonight.
Slow down because your little one is not going to slow down.